(Josh and our new nephew Daniel, born Sept 1,2010--and this is why, it is so hard to make such a life changing decision...just the look on Josh's face, holding that newborn,it says it all....)
Today is day 3 since saying good bye, and day 16 since her death-I am confused. Confused as to if I want to try to get pregnant later on in life, or if I should get the tubes tied off. I need to make a decision by today at 12:40 p.m. I woke up this morning, and while sitting on my front porch looked at the rose bush we dedicated to our daughter Jace Marie. Before her death this bush was dead, it has now sprouted up...but today, there were 3 open flowers, it was like the kids were saying "Hey Mom, we are okay!" It brought me some peace, I actually smiled, a real smile, for the first time in a long time. It is nice to think of earthly things, such as rose bushes, as signs from above. Maybe this will help me "move on". Being pushed out the door, ttyl.
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