D-R-A-M-A...

When you least expect it these 5 BIG letters pop up into ones life...like today, in mine. Before I get into this day, and the D-R-A-M-A of it, I wanted to announce to everyone that my brother, Nathan and his wife and son Skyler made it back to Illinois safely for their 30 days of vacation, very exciting and thankful he is home. Skyler is now 9 months old, and Nathan just got home from his tour in Iraq, so prayers go out to all the other soilders left behind out there in those countries fighting for our freedom and the others freedom as well, thank you to our military and their families. Today has been on of those days. The car, the new car we just bought like 1 1/2 weeks ago, broke down. The power steering went out completely on it, not sure if its the geer or the pump, we will find out soon enough though Im sure. It seems like no matter how hard we try, we take 2 or 3 steps back. Someone told me that its Satan working against us, and he only does that when something good is about to happen. All I have to say to that is, SOMETHING GOOD HAPPEN ALREADY, weve been through hell and back the last 3 years, some fault of our own, and some things out of our control. It would be nice to see good happen without something bad following it SOON! I am sitting here listening to this song by Sara Groves called
 "From this One Place" and Ill tell you what, if you really sit and listen to it, it is so so just right. Anyways, if its not one thing its another, I know we are just starting out as adults..well kind of, Im 23 and hes 27, but we are rebuilding, and they say every new house something goes wrong and you have to start from fresh, but Im so sick of starting over, I just want to be on our own 2 feet, and doing for ourselves what our parents do for themselves! I just want to be truly happy. Sure a smile can fake people out into believing you are happy, a voice with a simple smile makes the listener think you are having a wonderful day and life as well, but when you really arent happy, you would think someone would notice that by now. Years of fake smiles, years of heart ache, years of tears and not happy ones either...enough is enough! Burned a candle today for our little Jace, no special reason, just because I love her and miss those little beats of her heart. If someone is reading this, I do need one question answered though, when a woman has a baby, much less 2 healthy children, why do they still find the need to complain? When they have a husband that made that commitment to her in front of friends and family, put a ring on the finger, and says I love you and kisses her in front of everyone, why does she still complain? When she has no worries in the world but her own, a beautiful newborn baby and an amazing toddler, a loving husband and a family that accepts her for her, how can anyone complain??? Thats all for now, have a wonderful day...MONDAY IS ALMOST OVER FOLKS! Thank you God!

Fluffy Duffy Angel Kisses from mine to yours,

Ashleigh