Visited the cemetery today...

Today is the day before Jace's 1 month anniversary/birthday, however you want to look at it, I did not realize this until her grandmother informed me today on our way to get some balloons to take to the cemetery, which made it all the much more difficult to go. To make this short and simple, the last week has been one heck of a ride for Josh and I, the car broke down, and then out of no where on Thursday, we received a phone call stating someone had taken out a loan for us to get a car, and wed just pay them back like they were the finance company, so Friday morning we picked up our "new" Jeep. Made me very happy, temporarily. So today, Josh and I went to the cemetery, and noticed there were more flowers there than before, and on one of the tags, for the flowers it read "I love you, Love grandma and grandpa" it was from Joshs mom and dad, I cried, Josh tried fighting tears back, it was very sweet. Got into an argument with the funeral home, Saturday about the proof for their stone, someone told Josh and I that it would be ready first thing LAST monday morning, because the car broke down, we didnt get to go until just now, we were then informed a week after it was supposed to be done, there was no proof until most of the stone was paid for, so we debated about canceling the plot, but in the end we decided to keep it because its a place close to home we can go to visit and memorialize. Anyways, we took a balloon and some flowers out to Jace today for her 1 month birthday, it was hell. Josh went crazy with balloons today, so sitting in our house, on Jace's memorial table, is a half dozen of balloons, its was sweet of him, I think he enjoys doing stuff like this because it focuses on the nice parts of things instead of the dark side of it, he is right by feeling this way. Other than that, my nephew, whom I havent seen since June is coming back with my brother and his wife for a couple of weeks, my brother is in the army and just got home from Iraq, he is stationed in Washington, so this will be a nice treat to see how big Skyler has grown, he is 9 months old now, and he is HUGE! Well I am going to head to bed, I have a migraine, but I thought Id write before I shut out from the world for a few days again...tons of fluffy duffy angel kisses to everyone out there

XOXO
Ashleigh